a stupid day, seesha , fish and chips. Peace centre to meet charlotte. i cant understand anything. Oasis sooo many people. saw hougang. I dont know what is everyone thinking. What they want ? Everybody seem so fake. who is real and who is not. think and think and think. No use. lianlian and me to geylang to meet Abk my bestfriend, i trust the most. why is everyone acting so strangely today, why is everyone so weird ? who can i turn to who can i trust. Everybody is all so fake. Everything is not real, something is being done for a reason. Why everyone like that ? all so fake so fake so fake. Just a fucking piece of shit. I dont know what you want , what you think , how you feel i dont know anything about any human at all ok!!!! why everyone keep bombarding my phone where am i where am i where am i... why!!! why does everyone and everything seem so fake to me ? why cant my tears stop falling, just what is the fucking problem. cry cry cry and cry whats the use. called ahboy again and again and again. i dont wanna be alone right now. i dont care about what relationship or love or whatver just a game just a joke. sit and cry squat and cry. Get over it forget about it. But u;re still so fake to me. I dont know what you want. i cannot trust. whatever i thought was real i now think is fake . whatver seemed real is fake. Ok understand that fake fake fake not real not true. pretending, lieing. OK! Let it go.
okay i said let it go. Ahboy said i can go to their hideout and sit by myself and just not be alone. But his hp is off !!! fucker. fucking fake fucker.Back to square one im getting nowhere. Ahboy , thanks ah for your FAKE concern. i hate to use this but puacheebyeeee. I just hate everyone. just leave me alone thanks.
i rather u leave me alone then be fake to me. I always thought i could turn to you but u just proved me wrong faggot.whats the fucking use of typing, a catharsis? i NEED TO find another way to relieve all this............. this dont help. fuck off blog

under circumstances, i behaved in a way i did under the influences of my delusions. Nobody will ever understand this.