Wanted to do my nails at bedok , blingbling nails but they were fully booked. I just wanted to laugh when i saw ppl wearing red or yellow clothes can. Like damn traditional. I know its not funny but i still laughed anyway. Early in the morning , from far away could already see people walking around in bright red , those ahpeks with their thick gold chains & rings walking in a high mighty manner giving us that "one of a kind" look . Was still early, Lianlian and i were not in the New yr mood yet. We just laughed in their faces , talked nonsense and more nonsense. Saw some people pulling transparent plastic bag , inside were those golden folded boats or whatever rectangular shape. Its to burn for the dead. We just cant control we laugh damn loud la , wth Cny burn stuff for the dead. Strong smell of incense everywhere , damn disgusting. Went up to her house to slack. First time taking picture with hipopo but she still must be 5cm away from areas near my nose at all times (:

Before we got in the cab we stepped on some soft land causing lianlian's sandals to have mud stuck all under.Hahaha. She was pissed , gave her some tissue to clean. Then i heard a slow weird noise. Something like "scchrwwarff sccherwafff " i turned to look at her. I just burst out laughing. She was trying to scrape her sandals against the mat so that the mud would stick there and she was doing it in a damn slow motion so the uncle wouldnt notice.I just couldnt stop laughing can. She still could ask me " you laugh what?" She also end up laughing. She turned the cab into this. But later she did feel bad & before getting off did clean abit.

Ard 2plus cabbed down to Bugis to do some last min New yr shopping. Was rushing like hell cos i thought they close early but Sofia who is wrking there said earliest 6pm. Not bad right but was damn crowded. Elva came dwn to meet us. I bought 3 dresses , nail extensions, silver/gold bangles & pretty slippers. Wanted more new stuff but no time. I wanted a new hairstyle , new phone (w595pink) , new songs in my hp etc . The more new stuff the better. It just made me feel happy. HAHA. obsessed man. The queue at the taxi stand was freaking long and everyone was calling for a taxi and queuing at the same time. We did the same. Waited for quite long but the operator kept repeating " sorry all our taxi's are fully booked" after letting me listen to Chinese New yr songs for damn long or " There are no available taxis in the vicinity at the moment" Screw you la. Called till my hp went flat. Lianlian called once and she got a taxi. Like wth la.

Cabbed home , then went to Godpa's house for reunion dinner.

Fell asleep on Mel's bed. Slept from 8pm- 1am. five hour plus then Dad drove me home. Changed then left home at 2am for babyface.

I love gg to Babyface man , the liveband , dancers , singers but not so the crowd but today really reminded me of the times at Sparks. Saw many many familiar faces. Friends all over (: Actually only planned to meet Elva , Eunice and Akboy there but saw Kelvin , ahchuan & co. Kpl & co. and so on. Ard 4plus left with elva , eunice , kpl and few others to Dewei's hse in punggol. We titanic-ed from 5am to 12pm . Im asking for trouble , told myself to be home earlier but i kept extending the time. When i reached home , most of my relatives were already at my home. So embarrassed to let them see me come home from outside all messy. Showered then wore my new clothes (: Slacked at home, didnt go out. Only ppl came to visit. Planned to watch a movie with lianlian and meet elva and eunice to celebrate Elva's bday at Cityplaza but i just dont have the strength to go out. Sorry girl " Happy Birthday" too.

Alright tomorrow is Visiting day two. Dinner at my Granduncle's house, plan to catch a movie and meet up with babyAndrew,lianlian & co at tanjong pagar pub. Off to bed at 8am. I have lots of photos to upload to previous posts still saved in drafts.hmmm will update when i have the time (:

i've never been perfect but neither have you.

14th January
Sotong's eighteenth birthday at v2.
Lianlian and i went to bugis to buy leggings.
Met up with isabella for awhile.
We bought Sotong a birthday cake but went to
babyAndrew's house first to slack for awhile before going
down to v2. Aft v2 we slacked at the coffeeshop while waiting for Andrew to
come down then we all left for Sabai sabai. In the morning Andrew,lian and i

cabbed back to Simei, Kopitiam to have breakfast. The dumplings there are really nice(: Mixed up all the chilli for fun,didnt know lianlian wanted the chilli. She kpkb. Hahaha. Then all back to my home to sleep.

(photos coming right up)

15th January
woke up in the evening. Lianlian and Andrew left first. Aunty Ve came to pick me up then off to Nicola's chalet at Pasir ris, Aranda Country club. Ate alot then went back home at ard 1plus. Later at ard 3am Lianlian wanted to have steamboat at LiangSeah st. Was really full but accompanied her. Abt 5am we went to babyAndrew's home to watch some ghost movie but i think his kumantong dont let us watch cos the dvd player kept turning off by itself. We rested then ard 7am we went to a coffeeshop nearby his house, somewhere in toapayoh for breakfast. We brought Milo along. The pancakes there are damn nice. We slacked , talked and sat there laughing at people man. Maybe not enough sleep thats why. Hahaha. Later we 3 reached my home at about 9am, planned to sleep for awhile then go to Escape theme park .

16th January.
Slept at 9am and Andrew said wake up at 12pm. Hahaha as usual he always wakes up first then start disturbing us. Always tell him "awhile more." Asked him to bathe first , then asked lianlian to bathe then my turn cos im like left with no choice, im the last but by the time we're all done. Its already 5pm. Andrew says @#$%^ hahaha. We walked over to Eastpoint to buy bubbletea then took Bus 5 to Nicola's chalet. Some photos of us on the way to the chalet. Sit like nobody's business. hahaha , what the ...

There were lots and lots of people at Nikki's chalet. I ate and ate and ate. i love barbequed food. Hahaha. and her chocolate cheese cake was damn yummy. I had 4slices. Too bad Andrew left first.


Later in the night at ard 1am. Lianlian and i went down to v2 to drink. After it closed at 3am. I wanted to go down to Sabai to meet Elva and Eunice cos havent seen them in a long time. Lianlian wanted to go home as we had only afew hrs of sleep the night before but she followed me in the end. promised to leave at 4.30am but forgot all about it later as we're all enjoying ourselves (: I didnt feel tired anymore was damn energetic cos i took some nitra from Eunice. After Sabai we went to Japanese lounge at Orchard plaza. Lianlian suddenly said she wanted to continue on to my home to sleep first cos hipopo is there. Can unds she must be damn tired so i said okay. Some pics of us outside sabai while waiting for a cabby.

17th January

Anyway at the lounge i received a phone call that made me damn angry. Eunice accompanied me to lianlian's house to clarify some stuff. Only to find out more stuff that made me angrier i exploded. Cos i didnt wanna listen to any explanations cos my personal view is that a wrong thing done is a wrong thing done , a mistake is a mistake and there shouldnt be any explanations to justify it. One can only atone/makeup for it and the other party can only forgive & forget since she is someone close to me. No such thing as not being friends anymore cos she's going to stick with me for life. I was damn disappointed la and i also felt bad about what i did but if i didnt do anything i would remember this incident every now and then, something like keeping it in my heart and that would spoil the friendship we share. But after exploding ( i rarely explode only when angered. exceeded the limit) i kept thinking. Maybe i shouldnt have lost my cool. I felt really lousy. aarghh i hate this shit man. I wonder, would she keep it in her heart ? Anyway shall not elaborate as its already over. over.over.

Elva sleeping at the lounge.

Eunice and i cabbed home. Couldnt sleep. I packed my hair straightener, makeup remover , clothes and all into a paper bag. Eunice came in a taxi to pick me up then off to her friend's hse in Choachukang. His house is like damn nice,modern,cosy,clean. fully furnished , well decorated with nice interior design. His hse has practically everything can. His toiletries are all suitable for me. Im gonna copy and buy all the same brands as him. Too bad i didnt bring my digicam or i would have taken pics. We talked, slacked and smoked. Suddenly my mood changed, felt damn happy. After showering the friend gave me some skincare product to apply. Like damn power right. Prepared to go out cos he needed to go out and we already smoked/isabelle-d from 1pm-4pm. Oh ya he has a collection of adidas watches in their different colours and vodka collection too. All damn pretty.
We cabbed to Northpoint. Supposed to do new yr shopping but Eunice and i already tangkup. We always tangkup chatting non stop for hours talking about the same stuff. Our past , relationships and so on or just stone. We ended up at the library but it was too quiet and we were like talking quite loudy and at the corner there were alot of ppl writing quietly , so serious like some examination and Eunice told me they also tangkup. hahaha. So went to this cafe that has the please wait to be seated sign. When we were seated, We just chatted and stoned for hours without ordering anything before leaving when Elva came. Its damn embarrassing and retarded to stone in public without even realizing it. I didnt dare to look at anyone when we left la. Was already kinda dark, Elva ate at longjohn then we 3cabbed to geylang. They did their hair. We got some stuff then cabbed to a hotel in Lavender to continue smoking with that friend. Reached there at about 12midnight.

The usual, watched tv. Eunice and i still cant stop talking. More than 8hrs already but its better than being paranoid. I rmb how i used to bring Eunice with me all around singapore running away from illusions. We wasted so much money. Im so sorry cos i thought it was all real,my fear was real. Anyway was starting to feel lazy. Lay on the bed. Now elva's turn to tangkup cos she started later. She msg-ed nonstop then she talked to me. She's damn cute can. She told me a story, everything so detailed but i only got the main point. Three cars crashed into each other. The rest of the story was details. Which car was parked 1st,2nd and 3rd and she talked damn fast. hahaha. Anyway to cut the long story short, she became damn energetic, took a shower then asked eunice to shower. She told us that we'll be going to Babyface.So i was like, okay erm anything lah. At ard 4am she opened the door ready to leave so i also followed her. Eunice was still lazing on the bed. So we went down first to throw rubbish then we cabbed down to Babyface cos eunice said she'll come down later. At ard 5.30am we went to the usual prata shop. I forced myself to have some mutton soup. Cos i didnt eat anything since the chalet.

I felt like a superwoman just going on and on , going from place to place. Watching night become day and vice versa all so quickly. Then we went to the japanese lounge again. Watched Koda Kumi on the screen. If only i had her figure. I rmb elva and i going to the toilet then squatting outside chatting/stoning for damn long not returning to the lounge. Eunice still didnt come , checked the time, 8am already! So elva decided to go and meet eunice. I went home and then knocked out for the next 22hours.

I cant believe i went to so many places in such a short time. Starting from Nicola's chalet , v2,sabai,Lian's home,home,cck,northpoint,geylang,lavender, orchard plaza and like finally back home.

kays if you've reached here, thanks for taking the time out to read my super duper long entry (:

From now on i'll start living like a normal human being.

Didnt do much today , watched Miss No good on Mysoju.com. Im at episode 7 already. The show is alright. Later Nicola and i cabbed over to 85 to meet Lianlian and Andrew for dinner. Another one ,piercing siao. LOLS. Ordered Ba chor mee , Bbq chicken wings , carrot cake and sugarcane w/ lemon drink. Like shit and we aren't allowed to smoke in the open air areas anymore. Why dont they just put it like this -The Singapore government's air/space you cant smoke. Isnt that the case ? Slacked ard her neighbourhood for awhile before Andrew left. We bought bubble tea, " Blk84 bedok north st 4" Simply the best (: then went up to Lian's hse to slack . Her bed's so comfy with a net attached to the ceiling, which falls over her bed. She sleeps inside the net. Somehow it feels princess-y. I lay down while Nicola and Lian used the comp. Got bored , flipped through a Ayumi book, still bored ... start taking photos.

These few days im just too lazy or cant be bothered to doll up. Just contact lenses and light foundation. I've kinda grown used to it. Anyway i really need to find money and do some shopping before the New yr . Please do it soon (: I wanna get grey/black leggings and some dresses and longer shorts. Hahaha does that make sense ? well thats what my dad said exactly " get longer shorts." And and and i should be going down to v2 tonight cos its Sotong's 18th Birthday (:

These days go on long after you've gone. These days go on and on and on.

I've not been well and this weird pain that im feeling at my joints and in all my bones is unexplainable man . Its irritating the shit outta me.
I bet no one would ever unds wad im going through cos probably no one has ever experienced this before. (pain in my joints and bones, ticklish feeling like something's underneath my skin flowing through my blood) It even feels uncomfortable to type or use the mouse.

That explains why i didnt blog for days cos i just couldnt type. Damn irritating i tell you. First the legs , to arms and all they way to the fingertips. It just gets worse. I never would have imagined anyone could feel this way until i experienced this myself.

I probably am not going to get well again, i've never been unwell for so long. The worst part was I went for a thorough physical examination and it did not reveal a medical cause. All they could say was " unexplained aches and pains" or "unknown cause" aarghh!! what the .. ?

What exactly am i suffering from ? Cancer ? rheumatism? some kinda cancer cells spreading or what ? identify the problem and tell me now, fucking tell me what i might be suffering from at least i could decide what to do.

Doctors could only speculate. Maybe this maybe that. Most logical explanation was that the incident could have affected/injured either a nerve or a muscle causing me to feel this way and there would be no cure,i'd just have to take painkillers all my life. Nerves are all connected and very sensitive parts.He wouldn't know. Ahhh. Well what i want now is not useless speculations , i want someone to be able to verify it . Doctor pauses then asks me to refer to a specialist at SGH. Maybe, just maybe he could verify it.

If i was well and fine, i was prepared to let the matter rest, i didnt mind the scars. But if i had to live with the physical discomforts or suffer from time to time, I'd get a doctor to verify it and i swear im taking legal action this time cos i just dont deserve this, i dont. No living thing should ever be put through what i went through or rather what im going through man. Right now i just need a doctor to tell me what's going on. It seems they cant put a finger on it.

So imagine this , you're unwell and the doctors dont know why , so they cant give you any medicine to get well. You just sit there suffering , waiting for the pain to go away or what ?! i doubt it'll ever go away. I wanna know the cause! Right now.

If i had to feel this everyday, i'd rather not live , its no use. Cant work or study or go out. fucking rest everyday is it ? i endured , endured and endured . They said i looked tired , worn-out , haggard . Its been really bad for me . I am nt happy at all . It just gets worse.

Seriously, Im baffled by this. Do y'all think i'll ever get well ? i just wanna know whats causing this.This feeling , its irritating me , its disturbing.

I might just go crazy man , for all u know it might just take a toll on my mental state. Cos other than blogging i keep thinking whats causing this? whats causing this?! whats causing this? LOL. okays not funny. I wanna feel normal again and if this continues i'll find a way to end life. i dont want to be a nuisance to my family or be a worthless/useless person idling all day long enduring the pain others could only see.God bless me.

irreversible damage done.

1. i'm still not feeling well (headache,stomach pain,fatigue & an uncomfortable sensation in my legs) Fever today so i went to see my doctor. Only been going out for meals and movies then back home cos i feel tired easily. Not sure why.

2. I didnt contact any of my friends or club with them for the last 10days or so.
Cos i feel that i've got no energy or the mood to mix around. i hate this. i just feel like being alone. There's a difference between being alone and lonely.

3. I've started going for my Facial sessions at Amore,Eastpoint and they are really good. 2hr long session plus dessert served in a highly oxygenated room after treatment.

4. i havent been working since the new year and im really broke. so , so broke this time. I aint got any money left.

5. Watched twilight & ip man both twice. Bedtime stories and Yes man. Yes man is a fucking stupid show. The dialogue is not even funny. Not worth watching. Those who said it was nice and funny must be idiots who laugh at almost everything or maybe even nothing at all. Damn draggy and lame that stupid show. I needed to listen to my hp songs and watch at the same time to feel not so bored. ( and pls i understood every single part of the movie) but still.. FAIL.

6. Every $80 spent at Watsons gets you a slim Ceramic Hair straightener and a spin at the wheel of fortune. I got myself 3straighteners and Mum and i both won the back therapy worth $128 from the wheel of fortune . I cant wait to go.

7. Everyone's talking abt the latest brand in town. Majolica Majorca. From the photos,the foundation casing looks damn nice and classy in gold but the real thing only has the lid gold and the bottom white like its made of some kind of cheap plastic. Like some kind of toy makeup. The price, $12.90. Thought was some kind of cheap lousy brand cos their brand name sounds like Lolita Lempica. Thought they copy but today i went to check it out again. Only the casing is 12.90 w/o the foundation. The foundation itself costs $29.50 and it is under Shiseido plus it states it is a skin remaker so i decided to buy and try. Although i love gold. The casing is still not as nice as the picture shows. Go buy it and u'll know what im talking abt.

8. Upcoming events, 8th sheena's birthday. 9th Ndy's birthday. 16th Nicola's birthday. 24th Sandy's daughter's birthday. Chinese New year and 28th Elva's birthday. How to get presents for them when i'm so broke?

9. I wanna get well soon so i can attend all these, i'd feel really bad to cancel any of these events.

10. I really need to get back to work asap and have some money kept away. I need to do my Cny shopping and i'm planning to go on a cruise again(superstar Virgo) somewhere in late February or early March. Its terrible to have no cash man.Cant go shopping , cant buy the things i love or waste money. Must depend on my parents which im nt used to or really like doing so. Cos when they pay i only buy stuff thats necessary but with my own cash i just buy for the sake of buying or buy just because it'll make me feel happy. Get it ?

11. What is causing this change in me ? staying home, feeling lazy, isolating. This is so not me. I never used to be like that . Kinda scary cos i used to dread not being able to go out and im doing just the opposite now & the funniest thing is that i dont feel bored at all. Whats happening man. I wanna feel well again (:

Majolica Marjoca foundation , Skin remaker (:

My cute boxers. Hahahaha .

Mum spinning the wheel of fortune.

Dessert served after my facial.

Eighteen Chefs located at Simei, Eastpoint. Apparently its some kind of yellow ribbon project thing . The staff working there are all x convicts. $6.40 for a student meal which includes cheese baked pasta or rice , ice lemon tea and chocolate ice cream. Not bad right.

15th December
Royal Caribbean International
Legend Of the Seas

My short holiday away on The legend of the seas (cruise ) was great . Fucking enjoyed , mainly cos there was alot of good food to eat & of cos i ate and ate and ate everyday. Hahahaha (:
On board the food itinerary's like this. Check it out yo.

Continental Breakfast (6am-8am) i usually skip this.
Breakfast Buffet (8am-11am)
Lunch (11am-3pm)
Cafe that serves Pizzas, Fries, Burgers & hotdogs all day long starting at 1pm and ending at 2am . Only taking a 2hour break at 7.30.
Dinner Restaurant (Formal) it comes wth a Starter, Main Course & Dessert) or Dinner Buffet
Free flow of Lemonade, Dark Chocolate, Tea, Coffee & Ice cream (Poolside)(11am-6pm& supper)
Supper ( 11pm-1am) Cakes , buns , soup & sandwiches.

Nikki and i shared a room & we fucking loved it. Neat & cosy with a dressing table that comes with 3mirrors, sofa, tv a small toilet and nice view of the sea. Alright here's all the photos of our room.






Its really big inside the ship. They have a casino , swimming pools , a disco, live band playing and so on. My sis and i on deck 9 where we always have our meals and where the pool is.






Thats my cheese pizza & fries from the cafe , and Kim taking ice cream , then a performance at the big big theatre before going to bed.





16th Dec
Arrived in Malaysia, KL . I didnt get off the ship cos i overslept. My sis said i answered her in chinese when she woke me up?!! zzz. She got fed up and left without me. So i slept in,only waking up just in time for the formal dinner and photo taking by a professional photographer. In a family portrait we look pretty happy, we look pretty normal , lets go back to that. hahaha (:









We only went to "formal dinner" for fine dining twice . Here's thee food we ate on the 2 different days. Lobster bisque, Black Angus steak and the rest of the names i sort of forgot. That yellow thing is mummy's Escargot . It dont taste nice.





Anyway here's all the pics of all the food i ate. I was super happy cos they had all kinds of assorted cheese and i love cheese. Parmesan, mozzarella,cheddar, blue cheese , Camembert,cottage cheese and so on , you name it i love it (: There are more than 100kinds of different cheeses in the world and i wanna try all man. ok here goes ..











i just want to remember all the food that went into my stomach. I wanna re-eat all over again. hahaha. Anyway on the 17th we arrived in Thailand , Phuket. Needed to take a smaller boat across. Spent almost the whole day sight-seeing. I am an animal lover ! (: Not much shopping thou.



From my window , other ppl going to phuket first .








My dad,bro & i rode on the elephant. Elpehant's hair was so rough and poky man. But the baby elephant was cute only thing their mouth look like vagina man =x Quite unsightly. Haha.

The baby monkey damn cute , dont know what species , never seen before in my whole life. Kays enough of these wildlife. Next we went to Patong , carnival. Love all the food along the street .

Night : we went back to the ship , was very cold so we went into the jacuzzi to relax. Made some new friends. Thought they were japanese at 1st but they said their from Mauritus.

The End ~ HomeSweetHome (: