Smack and Slack , smacked and slacked. At Teban and BukitBatok. Nick and Clown's hse (: At times i dont even go home. I sleep and shower, go to work then sometimes club for awhile , get the stuff and then back to wherever they are at. Its the same routine everyday or sometimes i dont even go to work, i just go home, sleep all the way through before waking up in the wee hours of the morning and cabbing all they way down to meet them again. The rest , they just slack ard or do their own stuff. Spent alot of money on cabfare and kelly man. Nick,clown,myself,binbin&gf and hillary&boyfriend. Enjoyed with them (:


ahaas merepek siol







Nickykoi .


Wonder what are they doing ? Buat ape ?

Clown aka Badut

Wa lan oi !!

whats with that face uh ? shag i think. Hahaha =D

Nic's home. At that time our relationship is Sayang. Something like close friend but not more than that. Just a relationship name : Syg (:


Clown and Nic bought back fighting fish cos they're too bored. hiaks.

The doggy babyco.

Look at me, a total mess cos im rushing for work. I cabbed to geylangLor19 to have my hair washed and straightened then cabbed to work. How u like my life ? Interesting rights. Ahaas. Its alright la =p

Look at his face, dont even look like him! Cos he always dont wanna sleep.

Hillary and boyfriend. Uhm i forgot his name cos we seldom talk.

At clown aka Badut's home. His younger brother joker is a nice person , He cooked mee for me and some others like very early in the morning.




After work, went to Oasis for ahwile. Me and brother Weisheng. He's my fav dancer man. LOL. Later cabbed to Teban to look for the rest.



Alrights, Lazy to upload all the other photos. Anyway the ending of this story is we all walk different ways and lead our own lives just like before. Clown is now serving Ns. ahaaas Botak =x. But he just msged me and we'll be meeting up real soon =D

Sandbourg again with Eunice, then Sabai. Bf didnt wanna go after his wrk. Dont know why i got so upset for. Went to Oasis with Eunice and Elva as usual then me alone over to sabai to wait for Nick my sayang and Derek to knock off, then we cabbed to yishun to meet Abk then over to Nick's hse in Teban. Far siol ! Wahlan Oi ! ( as he always says) hahaha. Later Derek left at around 9am. Was trying to sleep, This Nick kept on talking non-stop on the phone with his friend until the friend + gf came in the evening. Was like 3hr plus?! Merepek la. Shared Kelly. They played ps games , i tried to continue sleeping. Ate 1/2 cup noodles , watched Finding Nemo till we fell asleep. Later got awoken by Nick talking on the phone -.- 11plus we went downstairs , was waiting for Abk to come. Felt so bored. Left for Lianlian's hse first. Nick and friends at Hospital waiting to get his friend's Mc. Might go back to Teban to look for them later. Cabfare up and down damn x ! There's something wrong with my damn stupid irritating problematic phone! cant msg out or call out. Need to top up soon i guess. Bf didnt msg me the whole day but he just called. I guess everything is fine. Sayang's still at the hospital waiting for the friend alamak.

Day before was the same. Sandbourg , Oasis/Sabai then Value hotel at Balestier with bf. Bumped into some Simei friends at Oasis. Ahtong and ariel. She got to take photos with my favourite thai Singer! Super love his singing , dancing and his face! shall upload the photos soon, courtesy of Ariel ! Oh and i just found out terence tan aka ahtong is studying in the same school as me but we've different timetables so cant go to school together. We're hoping our timetables will be the same after our exams.

My fav thai singer man ! =D & ariel (=



Nikki types about me in her 19th and 20th entries. Hahaha ! cant stop laughing
http://capricious-miss.livejournal.com/

Picked Eunice then Lianlian. Down to Geylang to meet Ahzhong for frog porridge. Eunice left for Sandbourg, I didnt go with her cos bf's not working today. Over to Lor 7 ktv to look for bf and friends. Later Lianlian and zhong left . SabaiSabai and Oasis wih bf and co. to meet Tabi,Elva and Eunice. Weisheng finally dyed his hair black and he's getting better and better in shuffling (=
After clubbing , bf and i shared a cab stopping at every 7eleven and cheers cos i wanted to get tampons. I opened the cab door when the vehicle was still moving and obviously i could see it was moving but i put my leg out to get down. My leg scraped so hard against the road, its so painful now. Im so damn stupid man. Must've been tipsy. Bf accompanied me down. Bought handiplasts, pad, Lemontea and other stuff like optrex an peppermint cough syrup from different outlets and finally the last cheers outlet sold tampons. Really dont know what im doing when im high. Hahaha. Booked a hotel to rest till evening then home.
well ytd twas just kelly and me , me and kelly. She did make the unhappy feelings go away and after a long good sleep. Everything is sort of back to normal i guess (: Just that there's a small misunderstanding between Charlotte and me cos i didnt meet her at Sabai when she came down to look for me. Well i put myself in her position and she's every right to be angry. Anyway its all cleared up (: On a different note, i just dont want to keep having relapses or feelings of distrust or whatever. It screws alot of things up. People will detest me !

Anyway bf's been paying for everything. Bought top up card and Marlboro Reds for me. Even bought a wreath for the thai singer. Guess he must've spent alot today. Later he gave me $50 for cabfare home too. I remember and appreciate all the little things he's done for me (: im happy for the time being. But what have i done for him? Not much yet. I really wonder how long we'll last. Who knows? Despite all that he's done/actions i still dont have much confidence.Not sure why. I want to get back that feeling where i can really really love a person. Have i really lost that ability? who knows. Lastly Baby yilong i love u. sighs-

a stupid day, seesha , fish and chips. Peace centre to meet charlotte. i cant understand anything. Oasis sooo many people. saw hougang. I dont know what is everyone thinking. What they want ? Everybody seem so fake. who is real and who is not. think and think and think. No use. lianlian and me to geylang to meet Abk my bestfriend, i trust the most. why is everyone acting so strangely today, why is everyone so weird ? who can i turn to who can i trust. Everybody is all so fake. Everything is not real, something is being done for a reason. Why everyone like that ? all so fake so fake so fake. Just a fucking piece of shit. I dont know what you want , what you think , how you feel i dont know anything about any human at all ok!!!! why everyone keep bombarding my phone where am i where am i where am i... why!!! why does everyone and everything seem so fake to me ? why cant my tears stop falling, just what is the fucking problem. cry cry cry and cry whats the use. called ahboy again and again and again. i dont wanna be alone right now. i dont care about what relationship or love or whatver just a game just a joke. sit and cry squat and cry. Get over it forget about it. But u;re still so fake to me. I dont know what you want. i cannot trust. whatever i thought was real i now think is fake . whatver seemed real is fake. Ok understand that fake fake fake not real not true. pretending, lieing. OK! Let it go.
okay i said let it go. Ahboy said i can go to their hideout and sit by myself and just not be alone. But his hp is off !!! fucker. fucking fake fucker.Back to square one im getting nowhere. Ahboy , thanks ah for your FAKE concern. i hate to use this but puacheebyeeee. I just hate everyone. just leave me alone thanks.
i rather u leave me alone then be fake to me. I always thought i could turn to you but u just proved me wrong faggot.whats the fucking use of typing, a catharsis? i NEED TO find another way to relieve all this............. this dont help. fuck off blog

under circumstances, i behaved in a way i did under the influences of my delusions. Nobody will ever understand this.

Down to parklane again, The usual. Elva,Eunice,Lianlian. Sometimes i really dont know what im doing. Not sure why also. Haha. Making a mess out of everything cos i cant really be bothered so much these days , just do whatever that makes me happy, go with the flow. Yilong and i are sort of together already, He bought prawns for me (: I only got to eat one cos i went up to 7th floor, Legend to look for charlotte. Shldnt have gone into her room. Saw so many friends i nearly died. Saw xiaokelvin, shunhao and valen my ex boss, from club viva. Some girls' home girls were working there.Bet they dont recognize me. Charlotte and i were like running ard. She came to 4th floor for awhile then went back up. My dear sisters Lianlian and Elva ate my prawns. Haha but it doesnt matter (:

My girls left for Oasis as usual. I stayed back to accompany yilong then we went to Orchard k with all the staff. Was kinda tipsy. Even thou he's just beside me , i msged him cos i've got a bad sore throat and no voice. We're like msging nonsense all the way. Hahaha. Later i msged baby, told him i've got a bf. Lets be friends, He said okay. He said im too "hong" already and he dont want any headache and he said he already know i've got a bf and he asked me to treasure yilong. What he mean by he already know ? its like not all along i was with yilong, we just started what. We continued msging and msging. About others badmouthing me and stuff, he dont want ppl saying his gf is a flirt, lazy to elaborate. Just wanna tell those bigmouths and kaypos whoever. You dont know me and i dont owe you so just shut the fcuk up. Not far from the truth but they make it sound so bad. Ohmy.

Yilong accompanied me to Oasis to look for the rest. Elva and i went to Sabai for awhile to listen to the live band. We're walking ard then suddenly Elva said " Eh jason lehs." i was shocked la but we did go over to their table. I cant really rmb but i did hug him, of cos i miss him, to me its like he's still my baby. We broke up only for like less then a few hrs. Cant blame me. We went back to Oasis. Jason and the friend came along. Yilong was sitting at the other end so i think he cant see us, sometimes i dont know wtf im doing. screwing things up. I didnt think jason was that serious abt this relationship. He said if he didnt care what for he send me msgs everyday. But its like when we're apart, the feeling is not so strong but when he's right infront of me. I dont know -.- Later he left. Yilong wanted to go off too, we cabbed to geylang M5 cos i wanted to get some stuff.
Bought Bra,panties a spaghetti top and shorts so i could change then cabbed to hotel81 Selegie to spend the night.

Jason msged me saying " fuck La, whose hand you holding?" and if i wanna fcuk ard go ahead , dont tell him i love him. And "Nexttime i hong your sister see how you feel." and many other stuff. Am i confusing everyone? He's confusing me. Later he did call to scold and stuff but i cant rmb anything cos im already kinda high. But i msged him to tell him we'll talk about it tomorrow cos i couldntt think straight. Seriously dont know what the fcuk is going on. Can one person love two people ? Anyway slept all the way through with yl hugging me through the night. Feel happy when im with him. After all jason and i started off as part-time bf/gf, but i did love him. So how would i know if the relationship was a serious one or whatever. Woke up at 3pm. Skipped school. Yilong went to work.
Im back home, nt sure where to go later. Maybe movie , seesha then Sandbourg.

zhengyong's stars , i LIKE ! Outside Oasis

During lesson lianlian called, she wanted to come my school to look for me. Was thinking what could be so urgent for her to want to come all the way to queenstown just to meet me. Andrew went in already. Another friend gone :(
Thats why.
we went to bugis, shopping. Topshop & bugis street. I want that pair of black lacy leggings from topsop! We went to Lavender to meet James then cabbed back to my home to put my stuff and get changed. Cabbed down to Sandbourg to meet Eunice and Elva. Later they left first.




Ard 3plus we followed yilong to orchard k then we cabbed to oasis to look for the usual. Ard 5plus we cabbed back to Orchard k to look for yilong. He's quite drunk & rested on my lap. We 3booked a hotel and rested there till evening which is already wednesday 3pm. I cabbed home, showered then cabbed to school.
Aft sch, cabbed to suntec to meet my precious girls, Sheena,Sandy and lianlian and of cos my precious baby Easton. He's grown up to be so playful,start throwing stuff when he dont get his way.


My precious so cute , love him to bits (:




sheena my dearie.

My meal for the day, at Gelare


Lianlian and i went to Geylang Lor19 to have our hair washed and straightened. Elva was there as usual , then baby (: Met ah wee and friends at Lor 17 before leaving for Sandbourg to meet Elva and Eunice again.
Yilong bought noodles for me, so sweet of him. Later he msged me to ask if i finished it. 3plus, Oasis. Baby was at peace-centre, i told him i'm also at peace-centre.He didnt reply. He's at Legend on the 7th floor , i'm on the 4th level. Didnt look for each other. Later saw him leaving. I left for Oasis, later baby msged me , direct confrontation. Accussing me of something. Flirting with his friend ytd at ahbao's hse before baby came. Was sort of quarelling all the way through msg. Stuff he said i did, which he didnt like or maybe was wrong. Didnt really have the mood , just left it at that.

After clubbing, Saw baby's friend's cars all parked opposite except his. Dont know where the hell he went. Not answering calls, not replying msgs. Best. Elva,Baby(wanyin),Eunice and Lianlian got into their cars so i followed. Later baby called me, told him we're going ahbao's house. He said he's coming over too.
Didnt talk at all. Felt awkward when bao talk to me cos i dont want any more misunderstandings between baby and me. Later baby sent Eunice and me home. In the car, sort of quarrelled. He has alot of excuses la and becauses and he doesnt see the need to explain to me. Not answering my questions , giving me stupid answers like " ya bring the girl and whatever " He seemed to be getting angry so why should i ask more? Dont know where he went , dont know what he did during that period of time everyone was outside oasis. Cos all his friends were at peace centre together with him, then they were at oasis but he was not. then later he appeared at bao's house. I do trust baby but whatever la. I wont do what you dont like me to do but i really dont see where this relationship is going. He just msged to say i dont update him on where i go or msg him first but the point is we always go our own ways and even when we're at the same place, he dont even care, just leave without a msg , so what for we tell each other so much? But i can understand that he's angry today but sometimes i do wonder what are his true feelings for me. Hard to tell. Anyway i promised him i wont go and talk to his friends or whatever whatever la , since he's friends like twisting their words making it seem like a different thing altogether.

I just realized , my lesson is at 12.15pm , NOT 3.30pm. Shit lahs , no time to sleep, might as well not go. Why the hell is evrything going wrong.
Okay la not everything. I still have reason to be happy about something (:

Bugis with Sandy and Lianlian, Shopped with Isabella while they did their hair. Later i decided to do my hair for fun too (:

Ahaas , just foolin ard with the gold extensions.



Now the black hair

Too long already la , machiam pontianak siol.

straightening my hair

im just too bored.


Sandy , having her hair done





Lianlian and i cabbed to Marine terrace to meet Andrew for awhile then to Sandbourg, peace-centre 4th floor to meet Elva and Eunice. Ard 3plus i went up to 7th floor,Legend to look for Baby and co. The rest left for Oasis first. Lianlian disappeared. Baby drove me to Oasis/Sabai. He said he needed to leave to do something. Sandy managed to come down (: Baby (wanyin) was there too. Always happy when im out with all my sisters. 5plus we got into baby's friend's cars and left for ahbao's hse at Clarissa park,pasir ris to get bao's car , i sat in his car to 201 to buy stuff from 7-11 then back to his home. Sandy,Baby(wanyin),Elva and some others went up. We're all playing. Anyway someone told baby that im trying to flirt with ahbao or be with him alone or whatever la. Later baby came up and we slept in the room together. So comfy. Around noon i cabbed home (: